kids..

Late last yr, before the N's result were out i kept smsing my tutee asking her about her grades to the point she asked why am i more excited than she is.

Last week, i totally forgot the O's were coming out till my tutee called me. He was happy with his results. Very happy and i cld picture him jumping around in cartoon style. First thing he asked, 'When are you bringing me to ktv again? Den we go eat pizza ok?' But he was working over all wkends and i was working over all wkdays. So we cant work out a date and left it pending.

Yest, he sms me telling me that he had quit and can go ktv anytime. I wonder, what had i make him into. A ktv addict?

There was once i was having lunch w the NP mentors. 3 guys n 1 old lady. I bump into my tutee's mum and we chatted abit. I was a bit worry that she saw my company and think tt i'm into younger guys.. hmm.. will she?

Think i will miss my this tutee kid. He may be rude at times with attitude problem, but he knows what is respect and he knows his limit. The things he said are sometimes better than what my so-called brothers say. Its hard not to dote on him too much.

His childhood friend, me another tutee was the one sitting for her N's last yr. She had also showed major improvement over the last year. She might not be as quick as the guy but she make up for being hardworking. Looking at the sometimes even i myself find it unreasonably too much homework that she completes really touched me.

These 2 kids of mine, they are really great company for tuition. The guy always throw me out once 1.5 hrs is up whereas i normally stay for 2 to 3 hrs for the gal. Not just for maths only but to gossip on the latest korean drama, her friends and mine. They really make the hours seems shorter and make my weekend more worthwhile.

Last oct, i gave my mentee extra maths lessons on her own request. Just 2 2hrs lessons before her end of yr exam. When the results came back, she told me with a bright smile that she gotten a seventy plus and added 'because of you.' This, i think is what makes me keep coming back for mentoring. Not just to improve on her results, but to let her know that she can do it if she wants to.

I'm not a perfect person myself and there are many faults within me. Hence i cant guide her on being a better person. The least i can do is be there when she needed someone and help her when she asked. This, should be the passion that everyone is talking about, at least i think this is for me.

They always ask me why am i still going back for? Am i getting paid? If not, why am i still doing it? Even my dad asked me to stop. My guy buddies have difficulties in understanding this part of me. My girlfriends are mostly still sleeping when my dad drives me into the school compound. Till this date i still do not know how to describe to them how i felt. So i used the infamous word, 'passion ba'. The day when my passion runs out, i will stop.

But now, i still wanna enjoy the thrill i get when i see those big bright eyes.