Seriously feel like crying...

Naggy mum, drenched shoes on a Monday morning do not goes well together.

Worst still, no milk for my morning coffee..

Seriously, anything is able to tip my scales now.

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ill..

Can i say tt e older we gets e harder it is for us to recover completely. Or have the virus these days become more powerful n harder to wipe out.

3 days and e fever still persists.

Trapped in T1

Aft checking in at 11.30am, we happily went to Poppey's at T3, came back an hour later and slowly stroll our way to gate C17. We were suppose to be there by 1.05pm but when we reach there at 1.07pm, gate 17 was closed with nothing but passengers scattered around outside, waiting for jetstar staff to open the gate. First time i reach a gate before the plane does. Well done!

We sat around for a while and finally grew smarter and make our way to check our flight at the departure screen. Our plane was not on the list!! Well done again!!

We saw our flight scheduled for 5.30pm and yet theres no indication of plane delayed or what so ever. Well done yet again!!

At around 1.30pm(our plane was suppose to zoommz into the air at 1.35pm), i received a sms (along so with the other passengers hanging around) to inform us that our plane has been postphone to 5.30pm. The sms is short and sweet. No explanation, nothing. Just that. Perfectly well done!

Too bad this is a budget airline and in one of their disclaimer, they did mention that their flights could be changed anytime they want.

Too bad its just a 4HRs delay hence no insurance claims could be made(nt tt we'd bought any).

Too bad we will reach there in time for dinner (provided there wont be any more delays!!) i/o late lunch.

Life is really WUNDERFUL when you fly JETSTAR!

wishing

i'm far far away..

i miss..

carrot omelette =(

a bad bad BAD bad dayy

if u noe me well enough u will know tt i loves chocolates.. all things chocoty..

but why does a chocolate lover like me cant find any chocolate to eat aft searching the kitchen uncontinuously for the past 3 hrs.

Think its time to stock up!!!!!!

Yanting is so exhausted she wonders if she can last another day(friday -_-).. and another day(saturday ~_~)... and another day(sunday ~_~ !!) ... and another week (. . . . ......... *Hint: think of this as a hearbeat*)

I need some motivational power to last me for the next 7 days!!!!

Think...
NZ ..ermm.. a bit long

Think...
National Day holiday... ermm.. i might need to work

Think...
massage.. ermmm.. i just went last wkend

Think...
Royce... ermmm.. any nice kind soul????

i just want to be happy.. why does it has to be so hard?

i wonder hw much longer i can endure.. i need a way out soon.

but i need to find another way in..

i just want to be happy.

nt funny..

Its not funny when ur pet dog suddenly stop whatever its doing and stare at the window and started barking.

N its SERIOUSLY, NOT.FUNNY esp when you are watching some ghost show and alone at home.

SO.NOT.FUNNY

Aft so many tuition sessions, i finally did it..

Its not a honourable thing.

I made my tutee cry last sat. I took out a piece of tissue and told her its the last one. I gave a loud sigh and said, 'Why are you crying when i haven even scold you?' I waited for her to wipe her tears away and continue with the lesson.

I didnt ask her to stop crying. I didnt ask her whats wrong. I didnt tell her that everything is alright. I didnt say a lot of things tt i shld have said. Instead i was cool to the point of being cold after she told me her results. She flunked, badly. Shes sitting for her O's and truth to be told, shes not ready.

I know she didnt dare to tell her mum as she knew that her mum wld scold her. But she choose to tell me. Instead of consoling her, i gave a loud sigh and said 'I really do not know what to do with you.' We went thru her exam paper and somewhere at probability her tears started to drop.

I guess its the silent treatment that made her realise the seriousness of the current situation. I just hope that in this remaining one mth she will go back to the time where i first started teaching her. When she cared more about maths than where i'm going afterwards. Where she take pride in her work and main aim is to score. I just wish that she will not have any regrets when the O's results are out. I wish that next year when she called to tell me her results, i can picture her jumping up and down and not be hiding in one corner crying away.

Hope she will not choose to give up but be more motivated..

What can i do now?

thinkg -ve thoughts again

Was wondering what if 1day, the person u used to love very much and u still does tell u that he/she is getting married. How wld u feel?

Wld u kick urself for not expressing ur feelings when u have a chance?

Wld ur heart break again and nv heal ever?

Wld u be able to take the news, smile and send ur blessings?

What wld i do?

Can i be selfish and wish that this will nv happen to me?

I'm sick. Again

Wasnt feeling well these few days but today was the ultimate. After lunch, i started feeling feverish and i thought it was just because of the coffee i had earlier on. I took a panadol and felt slightly better. Den i drown myself with lots of fluid till i kept rushing to the toilet.

On the way home on the train, the aircon was blasting and my goosebumps started to pop out. Den suddenly my ears got block and i seriously heard a ringing sound. Suddenly i started to see stars and i thought thats it.

Luckily i didnt faint nor wat. The rest of the journey was a mystery. I only remember feeling extremly cold and shivering thru out.

By the time i got home, i took my temp and it showed 37.5. Still not tt bad but i decided to drop by the doctor for some medicine.

Luckily i didnt have to wait long as there was only 2 others infront of me. Thanks CL for coming when i asked. Sorry for asking you to go back again. Cause i thought it will be a long long wait.

Inside the doct, he asked me whats wrong and i told him of my sore throat, blocked ears, body ached and fever. He checked my ears and breathing and said its not too bad. Den he pop a thermometer into my mouth and carried on writing down the symptons on my card. He was done and the thermometer have not beep yet. He looked at the clock and i try to look at the thermometer. 'Ho sai liao' I thought to myself.

By the time it finally beeped, it shows 38.9 degree. How did that happened within 15 mins?

He asked me if i need MC and i said yes, den he asked if i want 2 days and i said no. I'm kinda regretting it now. But if i'm on leave, there will be 2 of them left only. So shall see how tmr...

Now, the temp is currently 38.1 after medicine and a bath. I just hope that i wont have nitemares all nite just like last May.

Think i'm not suited to work. Las time before i started working, i nv had temp above 38. But now, in a yr, i experience it twice. I dun like it.

Because nothing good happens when i fall sick. Dun let it happened this time too ok?

(>_<)

Why is it so hard to find tours that organise horse riding in WA during sunset along the coast???

Back in Hanoi

Arrive in Hanoi this morning from Lao Cai at 5am. Took a cab to ou hotel as there wasnt any pickup. We thought there was suppose to be. In the end we took a cab back and it was running by meter. When we reach the hotel, the shutters was close so i just knock on it consistenly till the lights came up. We didnt pay the cabbie as we thought tt the package shld include everything.

When the hotel gate were finally open, we ask them to pay for the cab which they tell us its not included. So we asked them the standard rate and they told us 40,000 dong = $4. But the meter show 120, 000 dong = $12 which of course we were not going to pay. We just gave him 500, 000 dong and the 'take it or leave it' face. Haa.. He had no choice. We are not going to be fool by anymore cabbie anymore.. ANGRY!!!

The trip to LAO CAI, SAPA wasnt very good. The first day was good as we went for a homestay with the Zao minorities and though their home is simple but it feels very comfy and welcoming. They even have hot water. Whereas on our second nite there, in a 3 STARS HOTEL, there wasnt any hot water. When we went down to check at 7.30pm, they told us to wait for an hour as they were repairing their water container or something like that den when we went down at 8.30pm, they told us to wait for another 2 hours. Of course i wasnt going to do that. I request for a change in room in a different hotel but under the same management but they say the other hotel is also facing the same problem. I refuse to believe it so i went to the opp hotel and ask one of the family tt we met during the trip. They said they have hot water so i went to the main management.

They say the hot water will only be ready next morning. It makes my blood boil as just minutes ago i was told 2 hours after having waited for 1hr. I wasnt in the best mood and demands a compensation as earlier on we had already been ask to pay another $20USD for transport to Bac Ha mkt when our tour operator already told us we will be going. They were just ripping us off whichever way possible to them. Anyway, i was in a very harsh tone when i spoke to the manager of Royal Hotel in Sapa and can you imagine it when he SCREAM back at me telliing me that its not his fault that there isnt any hot water in that building as the building is under construction. So, was it my fault for staying in that hotel den? If you do not have any hot water then say so in the first place, and make arrangement ab0ut it so that the ppl staying there can go elsewhere to shower instead of telling us to wait 0ne hour, den 2 hours and so on. The way they manage it was so so wrong. Goodness. And the thing is, they are not a countryside, SAPA town had already been so developed and commercialise that it pains me to see those minorities hanging outside..

to be continue.. going off..

Sundays' nap

For the past few sundays, as long as i'm home, i will take a nap to make up for my stolen sleep. The nap normally last for 2 to 4 hrs. I will always feel refreshed and well rest with a sense of satisfaction when i wake up.

But not this noon. I woke up early for breakfast, went for tuition and by the time i got home, i was looking forward to my wkly nap.

I switch on the aircon and the fan, close the curtain, change to my sleeping atire, drag the blanket over me and make myself comfortable with the pillows and blosters.

I was waiting for sleep to take over me. But it didnt. I forcefully shut my eye lids and try to blank out my mind. It still doesnt work. I didnt give up so easily and i tried once again. The next time i open my eyes and check my hp, it showed 3plus, the next it showed 5plus. But to me it felt like minutes. I woke up feeling like i just went to sleep. Not refreshed, nor well rest.

Damn. I hate this kinda feelings.

Cold

Felt like i'm falling sick. I bought vitamin C this noon and started pooping them. Den i started drowning myself with fluid and den overdosing with lozenges.

Now, after a hot shower, i still feel cold.

Tonight gona be the nite where i learn to sleep without my aircon. Since i got back i cld only sleep when both my aircon n fan is on. Else i will wake up in the middle of the night to switch them on. I hope i can make it tonite.

Picked up 'Marley and Me' just now as i feel like drooling over a book and i miss this book most. So, re-reading it now. Something which i seldom to never do. But its too good to be put forgotten on my shelf.

Sigh... I need to rest.. Not making sense now.. Let me fall sick ba.. hahhaaha

ouch ouch...

Last sat, we had our ice breaking session. As everyone knows, games will be played during ice breaking session. So, i had a morning of games. I didnt do much running but face it, i'm old. Those muscles that were seldom used were suddenly put to used. Guess they arent very happy bout it.

On sun, i went to ecp for a rollerblading session w my dance friends. The past rollerblading sessions that i had with others are normally very casual and relax where i'll be enjoying myself yet not be the slowest. But yest, i had to put in more effort than normal just to keep up with them. It was so so so TIRING!! The only thing that motivated me was Old Town white coffee. Otherwise i wld just roll myself back instead of blade back. Oh, not fogetting that i had my first fall in blading.

I was going down a real gentle sloop but because of my high cg, and heavy weight, i started going faster and faster. I didnt know how to stop you see. So my friend being the pro tried to grab me. In the end we both fell. I fell on my butt and because he was holding on to my right hand, my rh was pull to the back. I landed on my butt, my right elbow has an abrasion, my right palm was squash as he landed on it. There was a bruise but its fading and it still hurts when i try to quench my fist. He had a super big bruise on his left knee too as he landed on it. ouch.. Thats why safety gears shld be worn at all time and all places. I did wear the knee guards and wrist guards but i choose not to wear the elbow guards as i felt that the elbows is less likely to get injured. I was proven wrong in less than 5 mins. Now i'm disfigured again.

This morning, it hurts. Not my palm nor elbow but my butt and tighs. ouch ouch.. I felt like such an old lady. And my back too. Or maybe i was just feeling lazy and was looking for excuses to zao work. haa..who knows.

Anyway, i went swimming just now. The pool was so so crowded and dirty. Gosh. I really hate it. But to feel the smoothing water washing over my sore areas, its heavenly. Now, my muscles are more relaxed, the palm is better thou the abrasion is not really liking the swim as i scrap it against the pool wall (ouch!!) when it was wet and soft. (eikks)

Anyway, time to sleep. May i have a good rest tonite, wake up early and reach the office earlier because.. my big boss is now sitting infront of me.. argg!!!! sian diao..

Another sian thing, i weight myself last fri and it was an exact 55, den just now aft i got home from the swim with one dumpling in my stomach, it was threathening to jump over to 56kg.. Oh gosh.. super sian diao!!! the scale is too sensitive lor...

Random stuffs..

I went for dinner n shop around w xy aft work today.

Twice, i walk towards trains heading towards the opposite directions. Even when she asked me where am i going i still did not realise my mistakes.

I wasnt exactly deep in thoughts. I was leaning more towards the stoning part. In fact, you can say that i'm feeling blue, out of thoughts. Maybe it was due to insufficient sleep hence i'm badly tune.

Or was i badly affected by the number of couples i see on street today or perhaps the boys in silver shops and men in gold shops. Valentine days have really been commercialise badly. Its sad in a way.

Late nite out.

I'd always rejected offers of walking me up to my flat as i felt that my area is quite safe. Even if it was in the middle of the nite. But it all changed..

A couple of months ago while out on a mid nite show, my dad called me. He asked me what time i will be back so i said after one or two. Then he told me that the police had put up a sign board asking for witnesses rgdg a case of indecent act near the rubbish dump area. We know no head nor tails of the event and our best guess was that there is some molester at large here. That nite i was out watching the movie with Jul, Erica n Ck. So he, being the only male had to do the tedious job of sending us up to our doorstep.

Last friday, after another late movie, 27 dresses, it was already after one when i reach back. As the lift door opens on the 6th floor, a hand suddenly came in followed by an indian man. As i was standing near the door, with another few inches he wld had grab onto my hand. I didnt see him at all as he was standing behind the wall so i was taken aback when his hand suddenly appeared. Him upon seeing ck, i guess he decided to wait for us to get out before entering into the lift.

He stink of pee and he has one hand rubbing his stomach area or maybe elsewhere. I kept looking back to see if he had enter the lift and he did. But he kept looking out at us. It freaks me. Earlier on, while on the ground floor, i notice that one of the lift was on the 6th floor. So meaning, if he was to take a lift down, he cld easily took that instead of waiting for ours to come up.

Sat morning while waiting for the lift on the 6th floor to go down, i notice a liquid stain on that lift door. I dun noe if its pee or watelse but i know its cause by a male and not a dog unless its a large tall dog. There is an odor lingering around the waiting area.

All in all, i was glad that my dad told me of the signboard. Otherwise i wld be alone that nite. And not forgetting ck who had to walk the girls up. Thanks a lot!

So guys, if i happen to be out late with you, kindly walk me up. My lift is not haunted.. Thanks you!

wo hao lei.