I'm all ready for u!

Last few days were spent feeling angry with the whole world and complaining about anything and everything. Nothing seems to go well and I don't feel like doing anything. Finally understand why.

Prelude to the time of the month.

Woke up at 4 am these few days worrying about dad and finance seems like the bills can't stop coming in. This morning, after some careful calculations, I realized that I shouldn't be worrying so much. Come what may. Just control my spending.

Again, Prelude to the time of the month.

YOU HORRIBLE BASTARD! How can you make me feel so horrible about myself!

Just bring it on you bitch!

A walk in the secret garden

When things are just not going the way you like it to and the many things that drain too much energy away leaving you down and negative and feeling alone.

Thinking that ending will be an easier way out but with no courage to go through.

No solution, no answer, no deadline.

A bottle of wine to numb the senses and praying that it will get better tomorrow.

Unable to disappear, too many concerns too much responsibilities.

Sleep. Forever.

Bad with names

Im bad with names. Not just at remembering them but equally bad at pronouncing them.

Kesarah became Key-sarah (shld be 科-sarah)

Nigel became 你-教 (shld be 奶-ger)

Im sure that there will be lots more to come.

My deeeepest sympathy..

This evening, with an hour to spare i alighted at wdls station to look for food at cwp. It was crowded as it was near 7pm. While thinking of possible no-fat dinner and walking, a lady cuts into my path (which is normal as it was havoc at the entrance). She was so near that my left foot stepped on her left foot. To be exact, its the side of her left shoe. Somehow her shoe almost fall off. To which she glare at me. As in seriously glare at me while walking the next 5 steps away.

My first reaction was to apologise but upon seeing how she GLARED at me like i had just slap her many times i stopped at 'Sor' and just looked back at her. 

My first thought of her was 'stupid kid'.
Then i saw her LV bag and her work wear and i realised that this is no kid but a working adult.

All i can say is..

MY DEEEEEPEST CONDOLENCES to you who is still working and had such a shitty day that you need to vent your anger on a complete stranger who accidentedly stepped on your jelly shoes while YOU crossed into her path.

P.S Recommend you to get a better pair of walking shoes as this felt non-existing when stepped on and also fell off your feet easily. Lastly, tomorrow is another day, have a great day, at work/shit hole!

Contented

I guess i can say that this is one of the best birthday ever. From 1 sat before to 5mins before to the actual day itself. Cant ask for anything more... Except maybe just a little bit more time to meet up with some other oldies..

Really really thankful to have known u all frm RSS - where it all happened and always giving our best and more!!

Enjoying..

□Walking up to no alarms on Weekdays (but not for weekends 😕)

□Having breakfast

□Wearing shorts and T-shirt to work

Need to adjust...
■Waking up before 9am (healthier lifestyle) and taking early afternoon naps

■Have my coffee while watching some news instead of korean cooking shows

■Get more shorts and longer ones

■Cycle more to save on bus fares and time.

1 year since accomplishing my 2015 resolutions

I was looking back at my previous posts and realised that it has been 1year since i resigned from my job in a prestigous bank. This one year has flew by without me knowing.

Afterall, i served 6 months notice and almost gotten another offer in another position within the company.

Then spent 1 month travelling - 1 wk in Indo and 3wks down under.

My dec was spent ensuring Dad is ok, going for a couple of interviews to which i gotten no offers and applying for more assignments thru agency. Yes, that desperate to be willing to teach 2 lessons for free. I still am. 😂

Now, slightly 6 months since i returned my employee pass. I am still happily unemployed or i should say strugglingly self-employed.

Many many sincere thanks to the dear friends who had many times over the last 1 year gave me treats and refuse to accept my money. I really appreciate all your kindness and i try, with my pea-sized brain to not forget these thoughtful acts. With hope that one day in the near future i can return the favour.

Hope all well ends well and most importantly, WORLD PEACE✌

=)

Was walking home after tuition this afternoon and it was drizzling. I was hoping that water will not seep into my cheap pair of faux leather loafers. A young lady from SAS walked towards me, drenched, and she smiled. A genuine smile.

How i missed receiving smiles from strangers.

Walked Darcy at quarter to ten and a young lady, say mid to late twenties was walking towards Darcy and me. Dressed like she just returned from a long day of office work and her face confirmed my doubts. It was black, as black as the dress suit she was wearing. I hope she has a better day tomorrow, at work.

That was me, many months ago. With anger in my eyes, all ready to chew off the head of the next person who looks at me.

Im still glad of my decision. Hope this will last. Hope i will last, on receiving 40% of my last drawn.

-The little things in life-

4 mths approaching

It is almost 4mths since i was last employed.

Apart frm spending a week in Indonesia, 3 weeks in Australia, i had been spending a lot of time with my parents and Darcy.

Dad hasnt make much noise about me not working yet and mum has been showing more and more concern lately.

Am i ready to step back into the workforce?  And the doubt of will anyone wants me?

Am i suited for the life of a self-employed? And the ability to increase my portfolio?

The monthly paycheck is very tempting but so is the time for myself, my parents and Darcy.

Honestly, i am glad that i am able to spend more time with pa&ma especially during this period where its good to have someone at home. But sometimes the restrictions i set on my expenses are kinda killing me. I want to be able to pay for their taxi rides, nice meals, better quality health products without thinking twice on the price. Its hard. I feel like im back to the UBS days, even then i had more money to play with and things werent so expensive back then.

Trying to tell myself that tmr will be better. Yah right, when im not doing anything today, how will tmr be better?

My 23rd birthday

Thank you River Safari & the brillant one for making my date with dugongs possible!

^_^

Its finally monday...

Where am i now...

It has been 3 weeks and im not sure what have i been doing and why am i feeling so tired.

I just want to sleep and stop thinking..

The End. My start..

After 7years 8months, 4 resignation letters later I finally returned my access card, send my farewell email and left with a heavy heart, ready for my next journey, looking forward to sleeping with no preset alarms, mornings with hand crafted coffee or maybe no mornings at all.

1AUD is at 1.0125 SGD

Now I just need to book my air tickets.

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MASTURDATInG

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Happy 31st

Finally submitted my photo to make the new IC a few days before deadline. Finally, after being nagged countlessly by numerous people.

The day before d-day, the brillant one sent this at midnight:


And he blames it all on the watch that I bought for him as the date was showing 30. Why didn't he blame it on the person who winds the watch and set the date instead? Indeed its brilliant. ▪_▪

D-day
It has always been my policy, as much as I can achieve to not work on this day. This is my day. And its also a policy to chop my passport on this day.

Before I went to bed, I turn off all alarms. Then wake up as I want to. Prepare, watch an episode of the korean drama and went to take the bus to the boarders.

Have lunch at one of my favourite place.


And go shopping. ....

then back to tuition, korean drama and Evening nap.

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Always remember

No matter how bad your day is, there is always someone who has it worst than you.

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Feeling kinda lost. .

No tuition to teach, no assignment to rush, no drama to watch, no Mr LS to disturb.

Feeling kinda lost and empty. What should I do when I wake u later?

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Feeling kinda lost. .

No tuition to teach, no assignment to rush, no drama to watch, no Mr LS to disturb.

Feeling kinda lost and empty. What should I do when I wake u later?

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13th Dec 2013, Friday

This last Friday the thirteen of 2013 seems to be one of the best day ever.

Everything just falls nicely in place.

Thank you!

Even Darcy just quietly lie there and wait for me to carry him in during bedtime instead of playing catching with me.

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Lazy Saturday

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