The past few days..

Time flies. Once again i shall say that. Time really waits for no man. Suddenly realised that it had been a week since i'd finished my exams. So, three more weeks to singapore.

Had been suffering from insufficient and uncomfortable sleep since my parents came. I think there is going to be a bruise forming on my left hip soon. I could feel it as i was pulling up my jeans.

Flying to NZ tomorrow mornign for 12 days. A trip that i'd not really talk bout not because i wasn't excited but because i'm 'sian' of travelling already. Been travelling too much this year i guess but still, hope it will be fun as i will finally be travelling out of the country.

Will be bringing my lappy with me as i need to upload my picts and also to watch some drama if possible. Bringing a book with me too. Wonder how many books i will finish this time. I did 2 books during my last trip.

Shall stop here today. Needa do some stuff.

Anyway, i cut my hair and since there's no pict u shall noe hw it is. BAD.

CHeers.

My life as it is..

My parents arrived on sat night and i had been bedless since then. Noone will be able to understand my feelings for my bed. Its my comfort for two years, my hiding place, my relaxing place, my stoning place, my studying, reading place and the list go on. Its the place for my everything. I'm going to miss it so so much.

Exams are finally over yet i'm not overjoyed or watsoever. In fact, i feel tired all times and want nothing but to hide under the covers all day long while watching my drams. Temper hasn't been good recently due to iknowwhat. By right shld be able to bear with that kinda treatment but i just didn't want to take it anymore and started leashing my anger and venting all my frustration at someone.

Guess this is the period where i should lock myself up and be with noone other than alone to prevent hurting my reputation anymore. Just a small minor action can make my black face emerge. I do not know if this is for the good or bad. Maybe this indicates that i'd treated that someone as a friend hence able to show the different coulours of my complexion otherwise it shows that i'm seriously pissed off with that someone.

Just hate being taken for granted. Here i'm being nice and helping you and making time for things to work and there you are taking me for granted and not listening to the things i said. I organised my time around with the intention of doing what i shld be responsible for but there you are making me redo one thing for the past two months just because of some stupid reasons and not doing the things that you said you will do. I kept wanting to give up and just pass on all the shit to the next person in charge but this will be unfair to the next. But i'm really pissed off with the procastination and the lack in interest in everyone else. Maybe i shld do just that and throw all kinda shit to the next person and say, 'Look, dun blame me too much for doing this to you but i'd put up with it for a year and enough is enough. I quit.' Fuck. Why can't i just say that. Really feel like throwing all the stuff and leave. Will i? Dun make me. If by the end of this week and nothing had been done, i think i wll.

50 years from now...

I hope that 50 years from now,

I'll still be healthy and fit to walk endless miles

and to have someone hold my hand and walk beside me towards the setting sun.

My first 9 hours of freedom..

I had my last paper today. While studying for it yest, i was sinking deeper and deeper into depression. I had no choice but to visit youtube and watch some anime to cheer myself up every now and then. Only while doing the paper today did i start to feel happier and more relieve. With each question my smile started to come back. Not because it was easy but because it will be over soon. I kept checking my watch for 4.15pm to come. Finally it did and i didn't manage to finish the paper. But so did a lot of my friends. So, heck it la.




Anyway, after the paper, along w 2 girlies, we went to St Kilda Beach. We bought some Belgium Beer from the Beer Garden and some snacks. Yes, i'd not only started on wine but also on light beer as well as sake etc. I tried a korean beer in a korean restaurant the other time while we had korean BBQ and it was super good. I mean, i like it.






It wasn't long before i was completely relaxed and laid back literally. It was super comfortable especially for a sleep deprived personal like me. We sat there for a another hour or two while i wait for my sunset. But sadly, there wasn't any clouds in the skies hence i wasn't able to see a magnificant sunset.








The sun setting into the sea. Never will i be able to see this in Singapore. Hence, hope that this won't be my last sunset, ever.

The Sun-server.


The Sun-biter.


Thats all for now. Tired. Needa rest early as needa wake up early tmr to go somewhere...

Eat air..

a banana
+ one glass of ice coffee
+ 5 grapes tomatoes
+ half a BBQ chicken
+ 10 cherries
+ 5 strawberries
+ a glass of lemon syrupy drink
= 2kg

Oh man, i really shld start eating air.

I think, its e banana...

Anyway, the price of bananas had drop by a whopping $3!!
Currently selling for $8.88 per kg.
How interesting is life!

A tiny weeny bit of motivation..

All the while i thought that, thats all. But it was actually not. Just that i did not look hard enough. It was there all along. My tiny weeny bit of motivation. To help me thru my last huddle.

Thank you to e one who will never know!

..

No idea why, but suddenly, i felt alone.
Helpless.. Not really. Just slightly lost.
Hope tmr will be better
Turning to my blanket for comfort.

I'd love you to want me - Lobo

"I'd Love You To Want Me"

Lobo

When I saw you standin' there

I 'bout fell out of my chair

And when you moved your mouth to speak

I felt the blood go to my feet.

Now it took time for me to know

What you tried so not to show

Somethin' in my soul just cries

I see the want in your blue eyes.

Baby, I'd love you to want me

The way that I want you

The way that it should be

Umm baby, you'd love me to want you

The way that I want you

If you'd only let it be.

You told yourself years ago

You'd never let your feelings show

The obligation that you made

For the title that they gave.

Now it took time for me to know

What you tried so not to show

Now somethin' in my soul just cries

I see the want in your blue eyes.

Aw, I'd love you to want me

The way that I want you

The way that it should be

Umm, baby, you'd love me to want you

The way that I want to

If you'd only let it be.

Random stuff, once again...

Firstly, let me post a pict of hail on my balcony at 3am that day. Seek hard and you shall see. If you look close enough, you can observe that they are already melting. (Click on the picture for a bigger version)

For the past four days, i had been doing nothing other than watching drama. TO the point that i'm bored. So so bored. After my paper that day, i felt lost. All of a sudden, i've lost my direction. I'd lost my aim and motivation. The paper was bad. But that was not the reason. The main point was, now, i have to find things to do. For the past 2 weeks, all i have in mind was to study, study and more studying. So, after my paper that day, i was lost. Because i need to find a new goal, a new aim and a new road. At least for the next few days.

Now, i'd found my route but i'm bored by it. Hope that i will start studying again, soon. Having my next paper on thursday. My last paper again. After that paper, maybe i will feel lost again. But i dare say, it won't last long. My parents are coming over AGAIN. Reaching on Saturday. They will be staying for a mth before draging me back with them.

I went to watch The Prestige with a couple of friends the other day. It was one of the best show i'd ever watch. The ending was unpredictable. At least not from the start. At first i thought Alfred was to be blame for causing the death of Angier's wife but in the end, which Borden was it that had caused the accident? He really did not know which knot was it, because he wasn't the one who tied it. When i thought that Angier was taking revenge for his wife's death than i realised that it was jealousy over Borden's success. He who lost it all. Lies become love, love was betray. Helper was brother. Science became magic which was actually the act of deceit. He who was believed to be dead was not, he who was thought to be alive, was dead.

A movie which cause great confusion yet was so intriguing that made me sit upright through out the whole movie. One that i won't mind watching another time. Simply because it was so good. A five out of five movie.

Saw my next door neighbour for the third time that night after the movies. It was about midnight and i was waiting for the tram in the city. It was cold but enjoyable. Then i saw him. I recgonise him by the muscial instrument that he was carrying. That was how i know it was him. If he was not carrying his m.i, i wld never knew tt was him.

The first time i saw him was 2 sundays ago, before my first paper. I was at the tram stop behind melb uni and so was him. He sat beside me on the bench. We didn't know that we were actually next door neighbour. We stop at the same stop, got into the same lift, stop at the same floor and walk the same way back to our apartments.

The next day after my paper, i was at another tram stop waiting for the same tram back home. I saw him when i was opening my mailbox. We were on the same tram again. Its just funny how things always turn out to be. That time there was a surprise visitor outside my door (the puppy) and i knock at my neighbour's door asking if it was their dog. I guess that day they were having a party because there were a lot of people in their apartment. But i didn't notice who they actually are. I was more interested in the dog. Then we never see each other again for the next 2, 3 months and all of a sudden, i kept bumping into him. Isn't it weird how things work?Just like the korean guy that i met in Cairns. 3 times and thats it.

I wonder who will be my next threetimes.

Surprise me!

When i was preparing to leave for my paper today, i looked out of the window and saw a SUNNY day. I thought for a while and extend my hand out. I was right! It's chilly with strong winds. So, i have to wear many layers in case IT decided to change it's mind.

I went down to my mail box as i was anticipating a letter from someone sweet. But it had yet to arrive.

Left my building and realized that it had started drizzling. Well, luckily i'm 'hooded'. I pull up my hood and walk into the pharmacy to get some plasters for my poor middle finger.

A layer of skin ermm.. drop? cut? peel? off. I realised that i was bleeding while cooking my beer pork 2 days ago and it had yet to recover. Guess the skin was too dry or the dishwashing liquid was too strong for my dedicate hand.I tried placing the layer back on top and plaster it but guess i didn't do a good job as there were a portion which wasn't place on the correct position. I wonder how it will look like after a few more days...

After purchasing a box of twenty, i walked to the traffic lights and wait for Mr Greeny to appear. Suddenly, things felt weird. The raindrop felt big and i'm getting wet.

Whats that sound?

Someone throwing peddle? Is the rain gettin' bigger?

I was all wrong.

It's hailing!! Lots of small white icy pellets falling on the ground. Ok, maybe i shld say hitting the ground instead. But it was so so so cool. Today's was the first time i experience such a heavy hail-fall. The balls of ice are about half a centimeter in diameter. They are visible. But they melt real quick. This explains why i got wet quicker. It was so so cool.

Luckily i wore several layers of clothing hence they were able to cushion the impact for me but i still felt something hitting on me. It felt like someone was throwing sand at me. It was so so cool. Out of nowhere, it started hailing. About five minutes later, it stop and the sun came out.

I'm so gonna miss Melbourne weather. I really will!

Can i have some ID?

I just gt back from Safeway supermkt. Went there to buy some meat n veggis and decided to make some beer pork. If there's this kinda dish. So, i went to buy 2 cans of beer.

When i was paying for it, the cashier said, 'Can i see your ID?'

I pause for a while, den say. 'Sure.'

Haha... That makes my day!!!

I'm so gonna buy more beer from him!!

Updates..

I've uploaded some picts to my multiply. They were taken during my sept trip to Queensland.

'Finally' I think i will hear someone say. I think she will need some entertainment to keep her from dozing off after lunch. So, here they are.

Underwater in Great Barrier Reef

Cairns, Cape Trib, Whitsunday(Sailing), Gold Coast, Coolangatte.

Might take some time to load since there's 51 picts in the later album.

I'm still relaxing. Shld be studying today but still slacking. Shit. Tmr better be more efficient. Need to wake up early tmr to 'chop' seats in e lib otherwise another day gone.

Since i slept late yest due to love hina. Re-watching them as i have nothing better to do. I woke up late this morning at 11 plus. I felt guilty for a while. Just a short while. Then i told myself, i deserve this sleep in. (Balance bought forward) Finally, was able to wake up becuse i wanna wake up n not because i need to drag myself out of bed. Yeah. Cant wait for next wed. I will be even more relax than today i believe. Because then, i will have another 7 days till the next paper. So, thats all for nw. Chill!!

My sense of taste is back..

I wasn't referring to my dress sense. Because I know I dun even have one to lose it and to get it back.

I was referring to my tastebud. For the past one week, due to stress, I was practically forcing myself to eat. From 3 meals + several snacks a day to 2 meals + a glass of Earl Grey + a cup of coffee + several mugs of Chinese tea. I was basically surviving on my sugar intake from the tea and coffee. I had subway, kebak, Korean hotpot, pizza and even KFC but non of them was able to provide me with any satisfaction that one will normally receive after a meal. In fact, eating was just a waste of time and i wish that there's those pills that can substitute food.

I wasn't the only one. In fact most of us who were taking efm felt the same way. We just lost our mood for food. So, aft the paper, 4 of us, girls, went in search of this Penang restaurant, somewhere in Ormond. Due to the express trains, we were brought to Camberwell and hence began our long walk. For once, the sun was out and shining after being on leave for say 2 weeks. It was hot and glaring. So, when we finally reach that restaurant, we were all very very glad.

Our purpose were to try the Penang Laksa. People who know me shld know that i like sour food esp Tom Yum. Assam Laksa is my favouite kind of laksa hence, it was worth the walk, the sun and the flies.

The laksa was good. Only today then i realised that the noodles that they use in Penang Laksa is different from those that i normally eat in Sembawang's Sun Plaza foodcourt. I had been deceived for years. So, secretly, i made a promise with myself.

That is, to go to Penang and eat their Penang Laksa.

Also, i want to go to Ipoh to try their Ipoh hor fun.

I want to go to all states to try their famous food.

But this got to wait till i'm back.

Anyway, back to the laksa we all had. It was good. It restore our tastebuds. Finally, we cld experience the satisfaction of eating good food. And now, i'm back to eating again.

There goes my weight loss and here come an increase in weight. AGAIN.

Time flies..

It's almost 2 wks since i started mugging. As in really mugging. One more day to go for my third paper in a week. This feels horrible. My first time in Uni sitting for more than 2 papers in a week. And all i can say is, i'm tired. Really exhausted. But I still have to move along. I can't hang there. Furthermore its my last sem. I do not want it to become my second last. So no matter what, i still have to hang in there. It sucks.

I was studying in e library today and i left for a while to use the comp, when i got back to my seat, i realised tt my money was gone. Someone took my cash from my wallet. But at least that person didn't take my wallet. Otherwise i will be screwed as i'd a paper this afternoon and i need my studuent ID. So at least he/she is a smart thieft. I'm the stupid one.

Anyway, need to start for tmr paper. I'm so screwed. Pray for me and lend me your luck for a day. I really, desperately need it! Thanks!

Tired.

I'm tired.

Very tired.

Exhausted.

But i can't rest. Yet.

Not until friday.

Wish it won't come.

Hope it will soon be over.

Contridicting. Thats me.

Why are you doing this to me?

Back to back. Not what i need. I want more time!

Someone

On nights like this, i really wish i have someone.

Someone to carry my bags when my shoulders are aching from all those books and notes.

Someone to accompany me home after studying at the library, or when walking along those dimly lighted streets.

Someone to buy goodies for me and offer me encouragements.

And especially someone to hold me when i think i'm going to fall apart.

Yes, i think i'm at my weakest moment right now.

The turning point of the y squared curve.

Tmr, will be better.

~I hope~

Hottest spot in Carlton.

We had always been complaining about how boring life is in Melb and how no nightlife such and such. But tonight, i made a discovery.

We DO have nightlife in Melbourne.

Its not expensive at all, in fact its FOC.

People from different countries, different ethnic backgrounds and whatever differences you can think of, gather together in one small building for one common interest.

There is drinks but you need to BYO food unless you don't mind snacks.

Recently, i'd took up this long forgotten interest of mine. And i'd not regretted since then.

Bailieu Library, you are one hell of a place!