367 days ago..

What will you say if i tell you that i want you?

I'll never know

Because i'll never say.

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Yr 07 will be gone in a couple more days. This yr had been a ..... .... ....... theres no words to describe how i felt.

Good and bad.

Happy and sad.

Ups and downs.

Home and away.

As the year draw to a close, i started reminiscing on the months that i'd been thru.

The difficulties of settling back, fitting into the family. The rows and crying fits and accusations that i'd endured. Like a stubborn bull, i'm still unwilling to bow. The wishes i made to the first stars hoping that i can be back at where i was.

The adjustments to the changes. My room, my life and my friends. Coming back to not two but three and even more. Trying to make up for lost time and lost emotions and learning that once gone, its gone forever. The empty space i left had been replace with else better. I wasnt the only one adapting to me being back, everyone elses' close to me were too. Fun times are not that fun anymore. Sometimes i really cant help but think that life may be better for all if i wasnt back.

The time i wish i'd have and not have. The jobs i took up hence leading to my current position. Life's a stage. Who wld had guess that i wld end up here? The tears of stress and the enjoyment of freedom. If it wasnt for my 1st, i wld not have appreciate my current. The panic i felt when finding a job became a chore, the encouragement i received when nagged and pulled to job agencies, the joy i felt when i know that i will be jobless no more. All these emotions are long gone but yet to be forgotten.

Everything i have, i encountered, i endured, i thank all who made them possible. Because this way, i know that i was, still am, alive and breathing.

If i'm a christian, i may say "Thanks Lord."

If i'm a buddist, i may say "Karma."

Being me, i said " No comments."