My dream or nightmare.

I had a dream last nite. Actually two to be honest.

The first dream/nightmare was bout an earthquake in Singapore, and i was at home when my building started trembling. I was with someone close. A secondary sch friend i reckon. Someone dear to me but i can't remember who now that i'd woken up. I remmember looking up at my ceiling to see the cracks forming and i remember looking down to see the floors starting to open up. Yet my friend still has time to tell me to run down and out of the building. We were both safe but it was still upsetting. It was kinda errie for me because ecouple of years back when i was still in JC and my bed was just beside the windows, i dreamt that i'd woke up to see a jet plane crashed to the apartment next and above mine. There was black smoke but no commotion. But it seemed so real that when i opened my eyes, i pull back my curtains to check if it was real or just a dream. Few days later, the planes crash that shock the world happened. Maybe it was just a coinicident but i can't help thinking of my earthquake now. I just hope that its nothing but a dream.

My second dream. I dreamt that i'm dying due to some terminal dieases. I have only a couple months of years more. I was depress and i cried a lot in the dream especially everytime i think of it. I started meeting up with people to have a farewell dinner with them and we chatted about our lives. I talk to someone who i have no idea who she is and she told me that she's a teacher. Suddenly my heart aches because i know that i will never get the chance to fulfill my lifelong wish of becoming a teacher. I remember how sad i felt. Like i'm losing something dear to me.

I woke up remember both dreams extremly well because they seemed so real and significant to me. I could feel the pain and the fear. Both dreams are dark and depressing but they got me thinking. Thinking of what should i do with the time i have left? Because i feel that i do not have much time left.

I'd just fill up an application for NIE fifteen minutes ago. Wish me luck.

Monetary benefits or humanity? I'll let fate decides now.

My 200th entry..

Just watched Music and Lyrics by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. Its nice and sweet. Perfect for a lazy night like this. As the title of the movie suggested, its about songwriting and their composition is 'Way back into love.' I'd added the lyrics from (http://www.soundtrackslyrics.com/mnopq/Music-And-Lyrics.html)below. Scroll down if you wanna have something to read while i'm away, lazing on a sunny beach with clear sea water and muscular guys walking around (wishful thinking on the later part). Haa..

Anyway, back to the movie. Another song that is not too bad is 'Don't write me off' as well as several other songs that Hugh Grant sang. I'm surprised that he can sing actually. So well, in fact. But wat surprised me even more was his dancing in this show. I remember from an interview with him on the movie Love Actually that he stated that he will never dance onscreen ever again. Love Actually will be his one and only movie with him dancing those grovvy dancesteps but well, he done it again. It was entertaining, very much. Could see that he'd aged a fair bit but his eyes are still the same. Althought he doesnt aged with grace like Richard Gere but he's still drool-worthy. EXTREMLY. Go watch that show. Its worth it! Thank you Mr Chen. Btw, the song is a demo version sung by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore.

Going off tmr noon. To JB for some light shopping n dinner and hopefully Go-karting as well before we board the 10hrs journey+2hrs ferry. Gonna buy an inflatable pillow otherwise i will surely get a sore neck the following morning. Wonder if the place is as beautiful as stated. Hope i will be able to catch some wonderful sunrises and sunsets. Just hope that the resort is not on the west side of the island althought i think that there's a high chance that it is. But well, no harm in hoping.

Have fun everyone. Dun miss my fair face. Sigh.. Shld take more picts first. Before i get tanned..

Way back into love - Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh

Early monday morning..

Went for yoga on sunday morning. After 1hr of standing, bending, stretching, lying down, i was ready for a nap. I started yawning and my eyes started tearing and i was so tempted to not open my eyes after each 3 seconds rest. But i didnt. Self discipline nah..

Went for 2 child abusing sessions after that. My dad pick me up after i was done and once in the car i started yawning CONTINUOUSLY. We had dinner, after 2hrs of animes, i was ready to hit the sack, so i went. AT 8.30pm. Thats why i'm up now. AFter 4hrs of sleep. I'm awake. Argggg!! I was hoping to sleep till morning. There goes my beauty sleep.

Life's pretty routine now. Not only day by day but wk by wk too.

Sat- Mentoring, lunch at CWP, nap and perhaps a dinner with friends.
Sun- Yoga, 2 tutions, dinner at home or rotting w all time rotting buddy.
Mon- Wake up at 11am to watch some old HK drama showing on TV, den relax for the rest of the day otherwise will be FORCE to study w XXL.
Tues- Wake up at 11am, study/anime. Dance at nite.
Wed- Wake up at 11am, study/anime. Tuition at nite.
Thurs- Wake up at 11am, study/anime. Tuition at nite.
Fri- Wake up at 11am, study/anime. Tuition in evening at BOON LAY.(Can u imagine it?)
And back it goes again.

But this wk, life's going to be different.

For once, XXL is coming over and STAYING over with me for dunnoe hw many days to study w me or shall i say make me study. Then, dance classes had ended for the beginning-intermediate waltz. So, we have MORE time to study. YEAH! Can you picture how excited i'm about this?

Lastly, i'm going away frm sunday night. Just a 4N3D trip. To a place where everyone would think of when hearing the song 'dui mian de nui hai kan guo lai..' Haa.. Finally, after so long, i'm finally going! But on the downside, i'm going to lose my fair face. Sian. No amount of face sunblock will be able to prevent my skin from being tan because that is so. Will needa buy a new foundation since the previous one i bought is becoming too pale for me. ANd i just bought it.

Can't wait for the few days of suffering to be over. Luckily i have tuitons to save me frm spending too much time w THE ABUSER! Otherwise u will see a heavily-PMS person aka me!

Think i needa change my perspective.

I love studying.
I love spending time w XXL.
I love studying.
Studying is NOT a drag.
Studying is a form of enlightenment.
Studying is FOC and a good method of saving money.
I love studying.

Gosh, who am i trying to fool.....

Dinner @ Sizzler..

All because of her, Happy Birthday Ger!

All thanks to her, thank you ger!

The two X-es. (XY n XL) Say an eqn for their name will be X(L + Y).

So if to add my name in, it will be X{L+Y(1 + T/X)}. Isn't that rite?

I miss you By Klymaxx

I thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you than I realized
And it was just my mind
Playing tricks on me
It seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Everytime when the phone rings
I pray to God it's you
I just can't believe
That we're thought

I miss you (I miss you)
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you (I miss you)
It's so easy to see

I miss you and me
Is it done and over this time?
Have we really changed our minds
But it's other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refused to believe
That you don't care

I miss you (I miss you)
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you (I miss you)
It's so easy to see

I've got together my senses to get there
I've been through worse kinds of weather
If it's over now, be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I got carry over

I miss you (I miss you)
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you (I miss you)
It's so easy to see

That you're part of me now...

Raining on Tuesday nite.

The moment i came online, my dance partner send me a song 'Xiang shui' by Xie Ting Feng.

I think i over applied hence suffocating him. Wat a way to drop a hint! Den he started asking me wat was the perfume i used last week and this week. Think the next time he will stay away from gers who are wearing these scents.

But well, i'm a typical Libra. So he has no choice but to bear with it.

Been sick for more than a wk. It started off with diarrhea for two days den sore throat, coughing and breaking into sweat even when i was in my air-conditional room. I blame all these to the chilli crabs and curry chicken i had 2 sundays ago as well as the chilli paste on the BBQ stingray i had 2 saturdays ago at Macpherson kopitiam. The deep fried chicken wings last saturday and the Cold Storage BBQ black pepper Chicken last sunday.

Come to think 'bout it, i think chickens must had offened me in my previous life because i totally love eating chicken. Esp BBQ chicken. I found out that blk 167 also sells BBQ chicken. heeheehee.. I pass by 2 uncles sitting under the void deck yest evening with a box of BBQ chicken wings btw them. It was pure ENVY from my side as i walk past them and trying to take in a deep breath. I wonder when will be my turn...

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XL stayed over last nite and we made Oreo Cheesecake but its not as nice as the one she had. I dun really like it and there's still a big slice sittng in the fridge as i type.

Guess who pop up for a visit??..


Its non other than my Ting mei mei (aka Ai Teng).. We are making plans to go P.Redang this April. Honestly, its not really making plans but more of she waiting for an ans frm me. We will be going w her bro's company. So can be said that i'm almost 100% going. Dragging ET n Jul with me. I only come to realise it yest that all 4 of us are 'lan jiu gui'. i.e We heart alcohol. Cheap drinks, here we come!!

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Went to dear xiu yi's place for dinner n majong session as well as to give her a surprise birthday celebration in advance. Very much in advance indeed.

All of us + e fruit cake frm Blk 167 which is super delicious.


muck muck..


2 yrs ago and currently.


The thick skin-er who keep aiming for e cake while the others are busy taking photos.

Oh man..

This MV is just too sweet to resist. Esp the muck muck part.. *melting in a girlish way*

Feeling depress, demoralise and losing it.

YT needs to get a job soon. Desperately. She needs to spend less time doing nothing and thinking about everything. Its time to invert the x-square curve and create a maximum point.

Give YT lots of calls..

I think most things look better at nite, with all the lights..

Nearby, there is a gold tree with bells hanging on it. The bells are attached to words like 'fa cai', 'ping an', 'gong xi' and lots more. The instructions there is to try to hit the bell by throwing a coin at it. All money will be donated to MILK. This is super addictive and since the money is going to a good clause, i can spend the whole nite throwing my coins away. Go try it too!!

Contact lens

My bro was still sleeping so my dad n i took the car and drove to 888 to get contact lens for me. While waiting to get my eyesight tested, the lady made me try on several pair of spects. She took some with orange, white, purple frames and ask me to try it on. Den she said, 'Will they let you wear that in school?'

I really have no idea why she say that.... Do you?

:D


You know how ppl likes to take picts of themselves w new spects etc. I was just wondering if i shld do e same with my new contact lens.