mi is back..

After 2 wks of MIA, theres so much going on in my head that i need to put down before i drive myself crazy.

Tiger's having promotion to Perth flying July at S$470. Should i? Theres 2 things i can think of tt i wanna do over there. Can i? Will you kill me even though i know you will say anything.

Went for mother's day lunch at Thompson Plaza's Sushi Tei last sunday. I wasnt the one who wanted Jap. My dad was the one. I was surprised and a million random thoughts flew across my mind suggesting why he wants Jap. But none make sense. Apparently, my parents had grew to like sushi. They wanted to go Ichiban Sushi at CWP initially but i refused. Reason: I wanna bring them to somewhere they'd never been to. But i guess the Sushi Tei at Raffles City is way better.

Thurs is my dad's 63rd bday. I wonder where we can go. Maybe Thai Food this time.

Got back from KL this afternoon. Surprisingly there wasnt any jam at Tuas unlike on Saturday morning where we spend approx 1hr in the jam and another 5hrs on the coach to KL that crawls. Maybe the S$30 ticket significes the speed the bus will be travelling on.

Shopping in KL, at least i wont feel ripped off. Maybe because i didnt shop in Petaling area where a LV bag says RM$700+. Haa.. I wont even pay $70 for it. Reason: I dun like water goods.

Didnt buy much but spend a lot. On wat i still have yet to figure it out.

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I've figured, the world will not stop revolving if lacking of one person. A company will not feel any impact as they can just rehire. A department can just spilt the work load. A lover can find another. A friend can make a new one. There is a substitute for everyone and simply said, i will not die just because you are not there.

I will miss the one gone but as time goes, the feelings will diminishes and maybe one day i wont even remember the times we had.

"You wasnt there when i needed you most." The you represent the person who wants to be there yet cant be there and not a person who feels like they should be there no matter how much they dun want to.

Like i say 1 or 2 yrs ago in an entry, when NOTHING seems to go right at the moment, just bear with it and it will soon past, just a matter of time.

At times, i may find life unbearable but trust me, its not enough to kill me just yet. Because, I know i still have a long way to go, with or without you.

Dont feel obliged to be with me, be it shopping, dinner or to offer comforting words, because i can still get by without you. Maybe the thoughts of knowing you cannot make it instead of knowing you are not enjoying it is better.

Sometimes, i'm really tired of being me and i wondered how it will feel like if i can throw away everything here and start life afresh in somewhere new.

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My colleague saw the picts i took in Viet and he said that they are nice photos. Den he went on to asking me what camera i was using. I said a 'digi cam' and he said 'No wonder, there seems to be no focus.' This i have to agree. Even when i looked at the picts, i will look over the whole pict before my eyes can settle on the main point instead of being lead into the picture immediately. I'm seriously considering a DSLR now as serious as i am on my dog.