Happy...

Haa... 4 more kg to reach my aim. haha..

Little insignificant things..

Its a beautiful nite. Not because there are thousand of stars in the skies nor is there a full moon. Just because it was a cool and nonhumid nite thus making my short walk home very pleasent. At the same time the radio station i was listening to was playing not my fav songs but songs i wont mind listening too.

I bump into Ramesh as i was alighting at my station. He was on the phone, coming into the train. I tap him on his shoulders and he was rather surprise to see me. Den he asked

'Are you in Singapore?'

I was thinking, 'i just got out of MRT and we are standing less than 2 metres away and you are asking if i'm in Sing. hmmm...'

But i said 'ya' instead of all the irritatinglysilly things i cld think of.

Breaking into new height.

I bought a new pair of heels today. About 8.5cm/3.5inches. Haa... I wonder if i will fall.

hmm..I shld make a mental note to not wear it with tight skirt. And not take bus.

On the 6th floor, after i alight from the lift, i will need to walk past a long corridor which passes thru two units. One is rented out to PRC. I have no idea how many are there in that flat but my guess is A LOT. The other belongs to an Indian family who apprently had gone missing. As in i'd not seen any lights nor open windows or wat so ever evidence of showing life in that flat. There is no strench yet thanks goodness.

The bad thing is, there are two overhead lights throughout this 8-10m and now one had died. Just yesterday the one directly out of the lift lobby had fuse out too but the electricans had change a new one today. My question is, 'How come they know that this is spoilt and not the other one which is about 3m away and had gone out since one or two wks ago.' My ans is ' Maybe they came in the day and didnt realised that the other had gone out too.'

I hate the 6th floor more and more. I used to take the lift to the 1th floor but i stopped after being bitten by tt stupid bitch on the 9th floor and then her owner can still tell me while apologising bout the BITE that her dog only show her aggresiveness towards my parents and i.

Of course la, they are on the 9th floor, both units belong to them, those who stay on the 10th n 11th will take the life on 11th floor hence do not need to take the stairs past them, then those on the 7th and 6th floors will naturally take the lifts on the 6th. Thus leaving only us and our neighbours where our neighbours are in their late 30s with 2 kids younger than 10yrs old. Why will they feel the strain of climbing up the stairs? Hence leaving only my parents and i who will take the lift to the 11th floor and climb down. Meaning that, THAT DOG barks at EVERYONE who passes thru their level. And its potentially dangerous. Anyway, i need to find new ways of getting home. Absailing???

My hp just died on me. Shit.. This is a bad sign. Its not low battery because it was almost full bar earlier on, before it shut down automatically and then again aft i restart it. This is so not a good sign..

Maybe my BEST QUALITY LG knows that its time to let go as my heart is no longer with it. I was looking at other sony ericson phones today and i think my BQLG sense my longing.

But they are still not what i want. Its not time for me to let go yet. Not till this is out. But i will still need to touch it, hold it in my hand, see how it feel and whether we can click.

BQLG, dun... i still need you!

How am i going to wake up tmr.. No snooze button to press.. arggg....

I just got my N8250 back frm my dad. N8250 is from my JC daz, my first phone and it has a blue screen. I wonder what my colleagues will say tmr when they see me with that phone. Haa... But better than nothing.

Dun be annoyed when you called/sms and i asked you who are you because thought my previous phone is a BEST QUALITY phone, but the sin card is from 9(wow) yrs ago.. Meaning it has limited storage space. Also meaning, the owner is extremly lazy.

(>_<)

Why is it so hard to find tours that organise horse riding in WA during sunset along the coast???

I'd created HISTORY..

For the last week, i was home for dinner for every single day from monday to thursday. Even i myself find it hard to believe as this is like the first time since i started working that i went home for dinner 4 out of 5 days. I was in the stayhome mood and i JUST wanted to go home everyday. Even my colleagues find it hard to believe and was getting worried because i was unusually quiet in the office.

I did warn them that i'm JUST pmsing but they still query me on things like 'BGR problem', 'money problem' etc etc. Even one of my colleague whom we enjoy suan-ing each others started saying sweet nothings to me. haa.. so unusual.

But i am alrite, JUST that i'm easily agitated and the mood swings are extremly hugh. Which even i have to admit.

Finally, i decided that i do not want to spend my friday at home so i went to EXPO with a friend but who knows that she will fly me aeroplane. (Yes, i'm trying to make u feel quilty if u r reading this. U noe who u are!!) (To CL: Its because of her thus i have to fly u aeroplane cause i dun wanna travel back alone so i waited for them. BLAME HER okay?)

Hai, sometimes really have to shake head and cant help feeling that how good it will be if theres a someone there. Its times like these that make me feel so lonely. Surrounded by people everywhere but noone who i can relates to. (I'm still trying to make you feel quilty!!)

So what if i have you physically yet your heart is already miles away? I rather let you go..

haha.. tt sounds so wrong but thats how i feel.

OK lar, at least i had companion for dinner..

Had another good news today after one yesterday. Haa..

May is the month of love..

Sweet..

Happily ever after ya..

mi is back..

After 2 wks of MIA, theres so much going on in my head that i need to put down before i drive myself crazy.

Tiger's having promotion to Perth flying July at S$470. Should i? Theres 2 things i can think of tt i wanna do over there. Can i? Will you kill me even though i know you will say anything.

Went for mother's day lunch at Thompson Plaza's Sushi Tei last sunday. I wasnt the one who wanted Jap. My dad was the one. I was surprised and a million random thoughts flew across my mind suggesting why he wants Jap. But none make sense. Apparently, my parents had grew to like sushi. They wanted to go Ichiban Sushi at CWP initially but i refused. Reason: I wanna bring them to somewhere they'd never been to. But i guess the Sushi Tei at Raffles City is way better.

Thurs is my dad's 63rd bday. I wonder where we can go. Maybe Thai Food this time.

Got back from KL this afternoon. Surprisingly there wasnt any jam at Tuas unlike on Saturday morning where we spend approx 1hr in the jam and another 5hrs on the coach to KL that crawls. Maybe the S$30 ticket significes the speed the bus will be travelling on.

Shopping in KL, at least i wont feel ripped off. Maybe because i didnt shop in Petaling area where a LV bag says RM$700+. Haa.. I wont even pay $70 for it. Reason: I dun like water goods.

Didnt buy much but spend a lot. On wat i still have yet to figure it out.

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I've figured, the world will not stop revolving if lacking of one person. A company will not feel any impact as they can just rehire. A department can just spilt the work load. A lover can find another. A friend can make a new one. There is a substitute for everyone and simply said, i will not die just because you are not there.

I will miss the one gone but as time goes, the feelings will diminishes and maybe one day i wont even remember the times we had.

"You wasnt there when i needed you most." The you represent the person who wants to be there yet cant be there and not a person who feels like they should be there no matter how much they dun want to.

Like i say 1 or 2 yrs ago in an entry, when NOTHING seems to go right at the moment, just bear with it and it will soon past, just a matter of time.

At times, i may find life unbearable but trust me, its not enough to kill me just yet. Because, I know i still have a long way to go, with or without you.

Dont feel obliged to be with me, be it shopping, dinner or to offer comforting words, because i can still get by without you. Maybe the thoughts of knowing you cannot make it instead of knowing you are not enjoying it is better.

Sometimes, i'm really tired of being me and i wondered how it will feel like if i can throw away everything here and start life afresh in somewhere new.

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My colleague saw the picts i took in Viet and he said that they are nice photos. Den he went on to asking me what camera i was using. I said a 'digi cam' and he said 'No wonder, there seems to be no focus.' This i have to agree. Even when i looked at the picts, i will look over the whole pict before my eyes can settle on the main point instead of being lead into the picture immediately. I'm seriously considering a DSLR now as serious as i am on my dog.

If

If only i cld throw my arms around you and lay my head on your shoulders and cry my fears away.