Finding myself..

Been back for a week. Sometimes felt like i'd never went for a hol. Sometimes felt like i'd just came back. The sympthons were pretty obvious.

I tripped over my bedsheets on the very day i got back home. I fell, knocked my arm against my chair hence causing the chair to knock against the window. Luckily nothing was broken. But, ouch.. It's painful. Den within the next hour, i knock my head against my desk. ET said i lost my bearings. Guess so.

The other day before the club meeting, i was trying to pull a whiteboard on wheels. It fall on me. I could feel it falling slowly like it was put on slow motion. My left hand has a scratch and my left shoulder too. But amazingly, there wasn't any bruise.

But i did brought back some bruises. Mostly from white water rafting in Tully River, Cairns.

This week had passed very quickly. I was still in holiday mood. Not willing to spend any time on my school work and club work. Just wanna stay at home, in my room ALONE, watching drama, sleeping and eating. Just want to be by myself.

I guess coming to Melb to study had make me too dependent on myself. Because now, i need more alone time than before. Its not longer hours, but days. Previously, i only need a few hours of time to myself, but now, i only need a few hours of time to be with friends. I want more time to be with myself. I miss myself.

But i'm still figuring which me do i miss most.

Now, i wanna find the me in Yr1. Where i wld study like no tmr. I need to find back my motivation.

Come back.