A day just like others..

I'd some bad news today. Wasn't expecting it. I mean, i dun noe. How was i to know tt he will be thinking of that. After all, theres only 2 more mths to go. Things had been alright since the start. And things seems to be alright till now. At least to me. I was sad. Not depressed sad. Just sinking sad. Disappointed maybe. But i know there is no forcing him to do things that he doesnt want. I guess i'm still in shock. Just wondering how others will react to this. Have to admit tt e same thoughts had pass thru my head. Couple of times, but at the end i will still hang on.
Because i was too big a coward to admit that i'd lost.

Lost the battle against time.

Just wondering, isnt there any solutions to this? Other than just quiting. Maybe he really had enough. He needed more time for other committments. Just wondering, cld there be a prevention? He must had been thru some really tough time to come up with this decision. He must be really brave to say it all out. Because its not easy. Not easy to admit that this is so not working out.

I asked myself how i should feel. Angry perhaps? But no. In fact, far from angry. I have no right to be angry. I could understand how he feel.

There are lots of times in our life where we feel like giving up. We can just heck it and walk on or pull out from it. My dad once said that i'd always choose to give up on things in my life. And he could easily list out several things. Things that i regretted quitting. Thanks to Dad. Because what he said work as a wake up call to me. But no thanks to Dad. Because no matter how hard, i will now strive on until i walk into a wall. Then people around me will start saying, 'See. I told you so.' The 5 words that i hates to hear most. And the five words that i will seldom to never say. Unless to the person who really pisses me off badly.

I guess, its better to brave it, walk on and get knock in the head then to quit.

Because, simply because, i'd quitted too many times. And enough is enough.

Me..

I cooked dinner last nite, for my hsemate too. Yes. He's still alive. Aft which i cleaned my room e living room and the kitchen. What had happened u might ask?

I'd just handed in an assignment earlier tt day. An ass that really make me hates it so much because it spoilt my fun. I had an event on saturday but i cldnt stay overnite as i need to be home to rush my ass. Damn... That feeling was horrible! You know you wanna play but u cant. That sucks. BIG time.

Now, i'm living my life ass-ing away. I have 4 more asses to do n 2 mid sem to prepare within the next 18 days. Please, enough is enough. Dun drop any more asses on me! At least not for the next four week.

Suffer now, play later!

N yes, cleaning n cooking is my way of destressing.. How much better can my life gets?

Oh, did i mention tt i found a potential eye candy in my lect class n tut?? Haha.. Yeah.. I need more of this!!

Holidays...

I'm going to need a big big bag.

Cause i'm going to Gold Coast n Cairns for 2 whole wks!

Wohoo..

The big bag is needed because i need to bring books n notes to go study!! Arggg!!!

20 more days to go..

Mum..

Mum asked me for my weight today. After i told her, she pause for a while den said, 'Its time to loss weight. Watch what you eat.' Dammitz.. Its insulting enough when she ask me for my weight in e first place. Must she add on the remark?..

What a mum!

After that she started chuckling away..

Argggg!!!!

I want...

I wanna blow candles at the beach at night where there is warm sea breeze...

Cravings..

I have cravings for butter cake. I wanna try making a green tea butter cake or a nutella butter cake. But when is my hse agent going to send someone to repair the oven??

Sigh!!

A surprise visitor..

When i was going out to get dinner yest, i saw this mysterious guy outside my door. At first i thought tt he belongs to my neighbour so i knock on their door and asked. But they said that he's not theirs. But he's so adorable. He doesnt bark at all and just want some attention from others.

I went down and bought a can of dog food, came up and gave him half a can. He played with me. He followed me around, sometimes running ahead but always looking back for me. Sometimes running on my left then behind me then on my right. We played hide and seek too. I hide and he stood there waiting for me to appear. Thats his form of seeking. After a while, i went back into my apartment and he stayed outside my door. At about 10pm, he wasnt there anymore. I guess his owner had finally found him.

I like it when he sit when i tell him to, when he keeps licking my palm and placing his head under my hand waiting to be stroke, when he lay his head on my feet and lie down beside me. If i were to spend any more time with him, i think he will melts me.

Loving the weather.

Yesterday was a windy day. So strong that i was almost (NOTE: ALMOST) blown away. But it was bright and sunny. Its hard to believe that its still winter. Because its not as cold as last year's or last last year's and last last last year. Maybe its because i've adapted to the ever changing weather. This year's winter is actually considered warm. Maybe its because i'd just return from the snow mountain, so Melb is considered warm. Or maybe, my anti social side is out again, hence falling into the same temperature range as the weather here.

I'm comfortable in the dark. In fact, i find peace. Not loneliness. Just enjoying the quietness that i have now.

Next wk, i will have 2 assignments due as well as 5 tuts to deal with. Think it will be a while before i can enjoy moments like this again.

Normally, after every trip i went for, i will come back with an 'article' n several photos to illustrate. But not this time. Because i'm still waiting for for picts from my friends. Just wondering how long it will take..

Hmm... I'd just finish watching 'Princess hours'. Finally after 3 days, i finished the 24 episodes. It was alright. Slightly slow and draggy at time. But well, its over and done with. Sometimes, really wonder whether if love still exist. Taking a look around, it hardly seems so.

Maybe, just maybe, my anti-social side is really back in action. Might be drawn out by the cold in Falls Ckeek. Wonder how long it will take for this sunny winter to melt the ice within me this time...

'Hush now don't you cry.
No dont say a word.'
- Hush by Joy Hisaishi

I went for practise today and once i entered the shop, i was greeted by a warm smile. After that i went to buy lunch. My food came before two customers eventhough they ordered before me. One teasingly made a remark to the waiter on how unfair this is. All i cld do was give an apologetic smile and thanks the waiter. 2 shops before my place, the hairdressing saloon's owner was standing outside and he smiled and greeted me. I replied.

Suddenly, this feels like home to me.

4 more months left. My airtick back had been fixed. On the 28th of Dec. Just wondering, if i should bring it forward or push it back for another week. Pending....

Isn't he GORGEOUS?

We met him at Falls Creek and asked him for recommendation for good food. And he kept going on and telling us where he had the best food. We met him a second time and hence we took a pict with him.

I must confess that i can't take my eyes off him. Cause he's so damn gorgeous.

ET likes his soft brown hair.
FM likes his strong hands.
And me, i simply like everything about him.

Isnt he adorable??

When its time, its time.

Libras are believed to be the pros at procrastinating anything and everything. This, I totally agree. But like I always say, when its time, its time. What will come, will come.

So today, I finally started cleaning up the mess that I was living in. My desk, to be more specific. Not forgetting, the increasing pile of clothes that laid on my bed which I kick to one side when I need to sleep.

I made a calendar to take note of the dates of my assignments as well as club activities. Another forte of librians, they are extremely organized and wont be able to work well in a messy environment.

Now that is left is to vacuum my room, wash the towels, prepare the club's accounts and do my tuts for the week.

Getting suspicious? What had caused the 180 degree change in my personality? A motivation I guess. Or maybe something that made me realize that I'm out of time.

Ski trip 3D2N. Friday till Sunday. May I come back in one vertical piece!